So what does one do when they receive information regarding their loved one that the end is nearer than expected. How would you spend those last precious moments with them? Would you forget the laundry and the housework? Would you not feel guilty about leaving your other loved ones in the background again? Would you talk about it openly with the one who is dying?
I thank God for the blessings of the time we have had. I thank God for the opportunity to develop a relationship that I never thought I would have with her. But I find myself selfishly wanting more. I want to take her to San Antonio. I want take her shopping. I want to cook a meal with her and stay up to late eating things that are bad for us. But those things are not to be. His will runs much deeper than mine. And His is perfect.
I pray for the strength to walk this final journey with grace and compassion. Please pray for me as well.
K
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
What to say
Now that I know I have this blog, I feel a sense of "obligation" of sorts to come up with something witty and interesting to say from time to time. That might prove to be a challenge most days, but I'll give it a shot!
My heart breaks each time I see the total devastation that has wreaked havoc on South Asia and East Africa. It seems so overwhelming to even comprehend the losses that these people are suffering. It is an opportunity for us as a people of God to reach out to them as much as we can. Money, time, items, and prayer. Lots of prayer. These folks are facing a very long and hard road to recovery.
Now onto California. No where near as large a tragedy, yet, but still people are suffering great loss and hardship. My prayers are with them as well.
"Life with Me is not freedom from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. (God Calling, AJ Russell, Jan 8th)
Take some quiet time today to thank God for all of your blessings and your trials. He is making us more holy so that we can come to live with Him when our time comes.
K
My heart breaks each time I see the total devastation that has wreaked havoc on South Asia and East Africa. It seems so overwhelming to even comprehend the losses that these people are suffering. It is an opportunity for us as a people of God to reach out to them as much as we can. Money, time, items, and prayer. Lots of prayer. These folks are facing a very long and hard road to recovery.
Now onto California. No where near as large a tragedy, yet, but still people are suffering great loss and hardship. My prayers are with them as well.
"Life with Me is not freedom from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. (God Calling, AJ Russell, Jan 8th)
Take some quiet time today to thank God for all of your blessings and your trials. He is making us more holy so that we can come to live with Him when our time comes.
K
Friday, January 07, 2005
Exercise, the necessary evil!
Well, I've been good this week at getting up and getting out the door to ride that darn bike. I was not very consistent for the past couple of months, so it feels good to actually get back to business.
Obviously, I am not a morning person, so waking up at 4:30 or 5:00 am is not in my blood. In fact, I downright despise it. At least for the ten minutes after I exit those warm bedcovers. But once I'm dressed and resolved to go, I must admit, I love that time of day! It is dark and quiet, something I don't get much of around here. The one problem I am encountering when I try to sneak out the door it my sweet dog Hannah! She starts crying from the minute I descend the stairs until I leave the house. She thinks that this time should be her walking time! She gets very excited and starts crying and howling and refuses to understand that this is MY time. Once I am out the door, it is back to the dark and quiet and this morning, COLD! I drive to the Y with no music, no talking, no screaming kids, etc... Once I get to the Y, everyone there is in the same mindset. No talking, just working out. You might get the occasional nod from a familiar face, but there is not much speaking going on. Probably an unwritten rule that is in effect. I really enjoy the solitude, which I never would have believed as I seem to thrive on the great social experience!
Upon returning home, I relish a few quite moments to reflect on a spiritual reading, pray, drink my decaf (gotta love that cinnamon/vanilla coffemate cream!) and just listen to the quiet. This morning I actually went back to bed after awhile since the kids were still snoozing. It felt so good to snuggle back into those covers.
Soon enough my reality awakes ready for some breakfast and his Thomas the Tank DVD.
Obviously, I am not a morning person, so waking up at 4:30 or 5:00 am is not in my blood. In fact, I downright despise it. At least for the ten minutes after I exit those warm bedcovers. But once I'm dressed and resolved to go, I must admit, I love that time of day! It is dark and quiet, something I don't get much of around here. The one problem I am encountering when I try to sneak out the door it my sweet dog Hannah! She starts crying from the minute I descend the stairs until I leave the house. She thinks that this time should be her walking time! She gets very excited and starts crying and howling and refuses to understand that this is MY time. Once I am out the door, it is back to the dark and quiet and this morning, COLD! I drive to the Y with no music, no talking, no screaming kids, etc... Once I get to the Y, everyone there is in the same mindset. No talking, just working out. You might get the occasional nod from a familiar face, but there is not much speaking going on. Probably an unwritten rule that is in effect. I really enjoy the solitude, which I never would have believed as I seem to thrive on the great social experience!
Upon returning home, I relish a few quite moments to reflect on a spiritual reading, pray, drink my decaf (gotta love that cinnamon/vanilla coffemate cream!) and just listen to the quiet. This morning I actually went back to bed after awhile since the kids were still snoozing. It felt so good to snuggle back into those covers.
Soon enough my reality awakes ready for some breakfast and his Thomas the Tank DVD.
Thursday, January 06, 2005
About Me
Ok, so a bit about me. I am a mom to 5 precious blessings, though this morning I was ready to be minus a few after I found purple crayon drawings on my built in cabinets...
I homeschool the kids, with the exception of my oldest who attends a small private "extension school." (basically I pay money for someone to hand her work that she does at home...)
My mom is pretty ill. She is in the hospital right now in fact. She has CHF and COPD. It is really something to watch someone suffer from COPD. If you are a smoker, PLEASE STOP! This is a totally preventable condition, but once the damage is done, there is no reversing it.
So I help take care of her, the kids, the dogs. The kids also participate in Tae Kwon Do. I help with the front desk there a few times per week.
I love my faith. I am a Catholic who doesn't know very much, but loves the Church. I love learning about the history of the Church, the Saints, and how it has impacted our world. I try each day to grow a little bit in my relationship with Him. Not always successful, but always trying!
I also love history. Anything about history. I am fascinated by it all. One day I hope to be able to spend a good amount of time to explore it all.
I stay pretty busy with all of the above. I try to find little avenues to express myself so this blog might be the perfect venue. If you're reading along with me, you'll eventually get the "Cirque de moi" point. Suffice it to say, some days I hear circus themes playing in my mind as the kids are fighting, the phone is ringing, there's someone at the door, and I'm 10 minutes late for a doctor's appointment...
Stay tuned if you dare!
K
I homeschool the kids, with the exception of my oldest who attends a small private "extension school." (basically I pay money for someone to hand her work that she does at home...)
My mom is pretty ill. She is in the hospital right now in fact. She has CHF and COPD. It is really something to watch someone suffer from COPD. If you are a smoker, PLEASE STOP! This is a totally preventable condition, but once the damage is done, there is no reversing it.
So I help take care of her, the kids, the dogs. The kids also participate in Tae Kwon Do. I help with the front desk there a few times per week.
I love my faith. I am a Catholic who doesn't know very much, but loves the Church. I love learning about the history of the Church, the Saints, and how it has impacted our world. I try each day to grow a little bit in my relationship with Him. Not always successful, but always trying!
I also love history. Anything about history. I am fascinated by it all. One day I hope to be able to spend a good amount of time to explore it all.
I stay pretty busy with all of the above. I try to find little avenues to express myself so this blog might be the perfect venue. If you're reading along with me, you'll eventually get the "Cirque de moi" point. Suffice it to say, some days I hear circus themes playing in my mind as the kids are fighting, the phone is ringing, there's someone at the door, and I'm 10 minutes late for a doctor's appointment...
Stay tuned if you dare!
K
Finally figured out how to make a blog
Now I just have to think of something to say! Thanks Mira for the inspiration! Or should I thank your friend, Wendy??!!
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